indigo.calm

When it comes to people in my life, I must admit I have been more than lucky.  Somehow I get to have the most wonderful people woven into my daily life - and when I look back I see it’s always been that way. Even when I’ve bumped into people who happen to be more than a bit famous, they have been genuinely beautiful inside and out. 

The most wonderful selfless person I’ve had the good fortune of meeting (at a show or two) has to be Ben Sollee.  He is constantly doing good things for others - not so that he can get recognised for doing good, but because he actually cares- truly cares about others. The shows he puts on will move you like nothing else can.  He must be the most beautiful person ever.  And he’s pretty.

The other day I stopped at the zebra-crossing to let someone cross the road and was completely mesmerised by him.  This man didn’t look like my grandfather, but it felt like it was him. He was dressed in the same type of clothes, tweeds - browns and greens.  Brown leather shoes, a cool hat and walking stick.  And he had the same purposeful, dignified walk.  He made me happy and sad all at once.  My grandfather is one cool man- I miss him.

The other side of the road had workmen working on some huge hole they had dug.  As soon as the grandfather got to the other side, he just stopped and became completely fascinated by the hole.  He stood there for ages completey oblivious to anything else in the world (and I was completely oblivious to the rest of the traffic behind me). The way he watched was so endearing. Only grandparents and very young children do this. Everyone else carries on walking with maybe a sideways glance.

How are you supposed to smile?  I mean really smile from within? 

This is the main thng I want to be able to do.  Frequently.  Maybe all the time.  And definitely in my sleep.

And I’m not talking cheshire cats and cheesey permanent grins. Just the warmth of a smile that can change the whole room.  And maybe the world.

Did you tell me you love me just to stop me walking away?

I stopped because I believed you - not because I was scared. (yes, I was scared).

I’m still scared.  But my fear is of things you’d not quite believe - things you just don’t see.  The things right here in front of us.

NOTHING is impossible.  My children have this belief of mine ingrained into their very being.  If there is something that they want to achieve, they CAN.  It’s just a matter of putting your energies into it and not not giving up.  Where there’s a will there’s a way.

Now I’m realising, it may all be achieveable, but some things take forever. Patience.  Real patience is needed.  And patience means being patient always.  I’m glad to say I don’t have many regrets when I look back.  I have stopped along the way many many times to remind myself to enjoy it all.